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Mission Moon 47

Some girls wait for something to change, but nothing does change. So they change themselves. I will stop 'blogging' for a while. I have unfinished business to deal with, particularly 'bad habits issue'. First we form habits, then they form us. We need to conquer our bad habits, or they'll eventually conquer us. That's what I am trying to do in this mission. I'm going to get through this. The power to do it is all in my mind. Be strong Lovellia! Nothing can stop me except me! And I won't stop till I reach to the top! Hahaha! There I go again putting my words into rhymes. I know that changing lifestyle is not easy. It will take huge efforts and motivation to accomplish it. I should begin with a single step. Rome can't be built in one day. I can't do everything at once, but I can do something at once, like... quitting online for a while, perhaps for 2 weeks. Huhuhu. I need self-modification help. I can do this if I just put my mind to it. If I work hard, by the end of the day I will get a reward! If this mission succeeds, I'll treat myself to a spa. Hahaha! Yeah right, like I have all my money in my possession now. I'll just get myself a cute outfit or something sexy and elegant. Yeah!

Learn to drive!     Help mommy!    Learn to cook!

Uwaa~Workout! Workout! 

 Look after beauty!  I can do these! Ganbatte!

Stupid Cupid

In respond to my first post... My first story was 'Cupid Just Struck' and now it's 'StuPID CuPID'. I was right when I said love is blind, stupid and crazy. I was right about that I might get hurt because of LOVE. I was also right about not letting go of my values for a change. I lost my heart the day I lost him, but I haven't lost my pride and I won't lose my lesson. I did say, "Never give your ALL for love. Spare a little for yourself, otherwise you'll be completely torn when there is no more love". However, I had underestimated one thing that I believe all humans have in their heart, something we call 'FEELINGS'. I didn't give up everything for love, but I almost did. Love is something that no one can have control of. It happens spontaneously and we can't stop it if it's going to happen. Feeling happy, excited, sad and hurt are all unavoidable and unpredictable. I should have known this. But I'm only human, like U, born to make mistakes. Yet, humans can LEARN from their mistakes. I'm the imperfect Lovellia. I thought I would never be torn by Love, but I was wrong. What past is past, there's no turning back. I don't regret and I don't want to forget. What we had weren't all that bad. So cherish the good moments and ignore the pain. I lost my heart, but I haven't lost my sense completely and I'm trully grateful for that. Otherwise I won't be saying all this.  Moreover, I have people who love me and support me... families, friends and total strangers who care. THANK YOU. I don't want to be in love again, but I can't say that I will never fall in love again. Like I said earlier, Love is UNPREDICTABLE, it'll come to u, especially when u least expect it. That's LIFE... live it, love it and learn from it. I accepted my fate. Life may seem unfair, but I know Allah is always fair. Perhaps my true happiness lie ahead, and all I need to do is just wait patiently. People say good things always come to those who wait.

*Note: Make yourself useful, NOT a love fool.

 

Goodbye Bitter Semester

I should have written this a long time ago. Actually it's only been a week after my final exam.  Now the clock hanging on my wall seems to be ticking so slowly. Before, time seemed to fly so fast. I don't blame the time. I blame myself for always delaying things that I was supposed to be doing. Some bad habits are just hard to change.

    This year semester was the worst for me. Only God really knows what I had been through. I learnt a lot for the past few months. Kindness is useless, cruelty is worthy. Life is unfair, but God is always fair. I want to believe that. I hope I can believe that. If you lost, don't lose the lesson. It hurts to look back, yet I'm a little afraid to look ahead. I hope I won't repeat the same mistakes in the future. Sayoonara bitter semester! Kore kara ganbarimasu yo!

Is 'Perfect' A Perfect Word To Say?

Lately I hate the word 'PERFECT'. Nobody's perfect in this world, not me, not you, and not anyone. So quit becoming a profectionist. Oops, I meant to say 'perfectionist'. Sorry, my words are not too perfect. I hate people who think they're perfectionists. No offense. Really, I don't understand them; trying so hard to make things perfect and always making simple things complicated. Perfect idiots I must say. I've met some though, but I've never met a PERFECT one. And they still think they're perfect? Wake up! We're living in an imperfect world!

Is 'perfect' a perfect word to say?

Recently I've to admit that I often want to make things 'almost perfect'. Do NOT get me wrong. I said 'almost', not 'perfect'. There's a difference between 'perfect' and 'almost perfect'. I don't consider myself being a perfectionist and I don't want to. I'm more like a girl who can get too obsessed with some things...like my handwriting. Duh! *Sigh* I know how lame this may sound but I do give a damn about my handwriting, just like mom. I guess it's genetic. *LOL* But I try not to show how fussy I am with my writing in front of others, because that's just so stupid and embarrassing (and why the hek am I telling this to everybody now???). Everything I wrote in class I wrote it all over again at home and this time with my real handwriting. If I think my handwriting is not good, I'm good at tearing papers. Oops, one embarrassing secret's exposed. Okay, my point is if you want to make things as 'close-to-perfect' as possible, it's fine. But if you want to make things so impossibly perfect, you're being ridiculous. Like Robert Hillyer said: "Perfectionism is a dangerous state of mind in an imperfect world." It's destructive. So stop "ruining" your life and most importantly others'. I know some perfectionists who just know how to mess up my beautiful day. *Sigh* Hopefully 2006 will be a nice memorable year for me. Like Sailor Mars used to say: "Evil spirits be gone!" Hehehe...

                        

Cupid Just Struck

  Hard to believe, too late to retrieve, can't deceive anymore... Days by days, I love him more and more. This never happened before. Until one day... I finally found love.   People say love is blind, love is crazy, love is stupid... I think I'm starting to understand it little by little. That is why I'm writing this now. Love is blind because friendship closes its eyes. Love may begin with a friendship, from strangers we become friends, and as the time comes, we become lovers. Nobody is perfect until you fall in love. I find that amazing... how love can create us, how it can create ME. To love something is nothing, to be loved by someone is something, but to be loved by the one that we love is everything. Love deeply and passionately, you might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely. Just remember, never give your ALL for love. Spare a little for yourself, otherwise you will be completely torn when there's no more love. Open your arms to change, but never let go of your values, that's how I finally accept Love. Love is not finding someone you can live with... it's finding someone you can't live without.

My dear Love...

If you flatter me, and I may not believe you. Criticize me, and I may not like you. Ignore me, and I may not forgive you. Love me, and I may not forget you. I love you not because of what you are, but for who I am when I'm with you... Thank you for making me feel special. And I don't want to hear you say "I love you because I need you". Please say "I need you because I love you". Because...

 

*Note: Only FOOLS fall in love. And I'm NOT a fool.